tldr; it's weird to talk about yourself like this. like it's a job interview or even a date
.... but nobody asked lol
I've always fancied myself a very unique kind of person. Realistically, I probably have some version of a god complex, or a massive ego or something, but it's how I've felt my whole life. I've always strongly, strongly felt like there's something more for me, that I'm here to be bigger, greater, better? ... more fulfilled. I feel like I have so much to give but I have no idea what to do to make that happen, even now at 27.
I used to think I neeeeeded to be famous, but with the way social media and the paparazzi are, I don't think I could handle the lack of privacy. It's the "too much privacy" feeling I often experience is what fuels that false dream. I think I want both: To be popular and loved by all and wanted and idolized and obsessed over and cared for, but I want to also be able to turn that off during those inevitable times where you want to disappear from the world. Maybe that's the depression talking, but turning off the world does sound great a lot of the time. But you can't have both, and that's better.
I'm intellectually curious, always juggling a variety of passions and hobbies, career ideas, and friend groups (mostly because my friends are all in different parts of the world). I can be indecisive (a lot of the time that's because I don't have a preference either way), impulsive, and I suppose I can have a pretty short attention span (hence the various passions, hobbies, and career ideas).
Like most people, I can go into black holes of research into the most random subjects until I get bored of it or burn myself out. I'm pretty well-aware of this, so when I find something I genuinely am interested in and it sticks for a while, I do my best not to fixate on it so that the hobby or interest doesn't end up feeling like work or forced. I've always been super creative, always ideating, dreaming, scheming, and as much as I love creating digitally (whatever that might mean for me at the time), nothing beats creating with my hands! I'm big into DIY-ing decorations and gifts and cards and recently I bought some air-dry clay and have been creating mini sculptures whenever inspiration strikes. I think the clay works really well for me because I get to work with my hands, get them dirty, use tools, physically make what I created in my mind, and then once it dries in a couple days (while I'm still inspired!), I get to continue it and start painting and do whatever other alterations I can think of until I deem it finished.
I'm quick-witted and the self-proclaimed Funny One in my family (even though nobody makes me laugh harder than my parents and sister). One thing about me is that I love to talk - and if you're new here, you should know that this entire blog is the result of all the complaints from my friends and family from sending too many long-ass snapchats of me talking about my ideas and stories and dreams... so I decided to write so I wouldn't be as annoying, and then they can all read it on their own time.
Communication is really big for me... Like obviously keeping in contact with people, but like communicating how you feel and whatever so that nobody has to try to read your mind. The common denominator that I've observed in so many failed situations/relationships (between family, or at work, or others dating, or in my own dating), it's lack of communication. I'm a very sentimental person, I'm thoughtful and passionate, "deep", and am strongly urged to express myself in alllll the ways (hardest of which is verbal communication, which is why I find it so important). I have a lot of love to give. I'm adaptable, deeply empathetic, progressive, introspective (lol if you couldn't tell between now and any of the blogs I've ever written), I'm a huge fan of adventure and travelling and learning, and I strongly believe in working smarter, not harder. Life is too short not to tell people how you feel, that you love them.
Recently while at work I got a call from a stranger who wanted to learn more about the services we offer, and she happened to be a psychic medium. She's not working at the moment so she can deal with some health stuff, so I won't reveal her name but this was the craziest phone call! She felt super compelled to tell me (her words were that it was NAGGING at her that she needed to tell me this stuff) how big my aura was, that it's full of blue and green like a kaleidoscope, and that I'm also a healer but with my words (unlike my coworkers which all heal with their hands, quite literally). She told me that I had to immediately google Star Seed and told me that's exactly what I am. I've googled it a bunch, and I resonate a lot with this and she's not the first person to match me with these grounded characteristics. There are different kinds of Star Seeds, but information varies so I'm not sure what KIND of Star Seed that I am ... I'm thinking Indigo maybe or Pleiadian, Arcturian, or Lightworker lmao. Some characteristics that I share with these types are: Resourceful, Healer, Grounded, Record-Keeper, Love, Creativity, Emotionally Intelligent, Spiritually Evolved, Clairvoyant, Deep Empathy, Stubborn in Intolerance of Unfairness, Selfless, Bright Heart, Keen Intuition.
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I don't know if this helps you get to know me more or not, but it was worth a try. I could elaborate further on probably everything, but I'll leave it at this for now. If anyone knows anything about Star Seeds I'm dying to know more! I also don't know enough to talk more about my Human Design, but that's one of those black holes I'm always going down. I'm a reflector if that means anything to you!
Until my next epiphany ... 😉
xx,
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